I know, I know... where have I been??
Well, now that the secret is out... I am going to be a mommy soon! My husband and I are expecting our first little mini-us in October.
So, to say the least, that has been my focus for the past couple months now.
Which, I have to say, there are a few concepts of pregnancy that I just don't understand, at least for trimester one:
1. You feel nauseous and even the thought of food makes you feel even more nauseous - although, eating helps to make you feel better. Explain that one..
2. I want to be limiting sugary foods for my health and for my baby's health, but sugary foods are the only thing that is appealing. Frustrating.
3. I've had pretty low energy and I just want to watch TV all day, except that when I exercise I feel better.
4. Food cravings come and go. One day I love pickles, the next day they turn me off. One day I could eat 5 oranges at once, and the next day they give me a belly ache.
5. I am hungry. All. The. Time. And I feel like I eat all the time, and yet I haven't gained a pound yet.
Anyway, my life for the past couple months has just been to focus on keeping this little sea turtle inside of me happy and healthy while trying to keep myself healthy. It can be a big job, and I'm only a third of the way there.
There have definitely been things that I've had to struggle through and figure out as I've gone along, but I'm happy to say that compared to other women's stories and experiences I've been pretty easy going - my husband is probably pretty happy about that, too.
My last thought of this pregnancy journey thus far is: I am not in control.
I like to think that we have control of our body, which is mostly true when it comes to diet and exercise and lifestyle choices. Since 90% of our health is based on our lifestyle choices and 10% is triggered by genetics - just heard this on Dishing Up Nutrition, not my quote but theirs.
But in a scenario that is totally NOT in my control like pregnancy, I can't help but be put in my place and rely completely and totally on God.
Since my mom had 3 failed pregnancies early on in her life, before my brothers and I were around, the thought of losing this baby enters my mind daily. Daily. I am just not in control on this one. I can eat the right way and take all the supplements I'm supposed to, but at the end of the day it's God who is creating this little human.
How my baby is being formed; how it's legs and hands are being molded and how its brain is developing, how its heart is beating... all these things are in God's hands.
After our last visit to the doc, seeing our little sea turtle jumping around and hopping all over the place, I know that this is a miracle. This is life. This is an amazing honor to have, becoming a mom.
"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be." Psalm 139:13-16
We've all read those verses before, I'm sure, but they have never been more meaningful to me than right now.
God knows who my kids are already. He knows their personality, their heart, what they will look like and how they will make a difference in this world. I have complete trust in God and I pray for my kids every day.
Well, I promise to write more! I have a few post up my sleeve ready to be posted, so stay tuned!
I will leave you with our little sea turtle:
